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A few days ago.. as I was surfing the net..

I came across these two videos below.. the words are very wise n true.. It's also very meaningful.. Watch it =)

I'm sure most ppl understand this feeling.. Sometimes we must be realistic n not idealistic.. it hurts to know how the real world works.. All humans are rational n sometimes to do the right thing in ppl's eyes is the correct way of life..

I know that it's hard to control human emotions.. but "falling in love is nvr a decision - always by chance. staying in love is nvr a chance - always by choice. And falling our of lvoe is nvr a choice - always a decision.."

Sometimes, what drives one away is not the absence of emotion... but the overwhelming presence of it..

Remember this.. n KEEP SMILING!! it's easier to be strong n be happy.. so that u no need to explain to ppl.. Most importantly... only u urself can make urself happy :D

Fear is always counseling you against the perils of 'now' because of something that happened 'once before'.

Yesterday might be a nice place to visit, but only fear wants to live there. The next time fear calls out to you, face it squarely and remind it gently that you no longer choose to live in the past and it can't live in the present. Then bless it and let it go.

May you always be aware that fear needs the past to survive.

till next time.. xoxo..

time in melb

It was green week in melb starting on the 27th July.. which means ppl gets drunk><'''

n ying invited me out on thurs night cos I dun hv classes on fri but she had.. she got hangover though ><

We went to this pub called workshop.. it was quite cool.. from outside it looks like a car park.. We drank too fast cos ying n her friends were rushing to catch the last train back to Clayton.. N i walked home alone.. :S I carried the pepper spray with me the whole time walking back home, especially I was high><

We drank 5 jugs of beers and 2 shots of pure vodka in just 1 hour plus? =.=

On sat I went down to Clayton.. stayed over at ying's place... her place was so freaking messy!! well.. she blamed those rats that invaded her apartment.. hahahaha..

She took me around suburbs since she had a car.. OMG!!

her driving.. is so unstable.. =.= n she blames me.. saying that when I sit next to her only she drives this way.. every bad thing she blames me.. even the karma~~~ hahaha.. n the crying she blames me.. so cham..

After that we went to the beach to chill n think about stuff.. Sometimes it's just so nice to lay around the beach to think about stuff.. but sometimes it can be too quiet.. hearing those splashes makes me calm.. at the same time there's so much to think about.. n u sometimes just dun wanna face it ><

see what I mean by quiet? ><

when it was still bright..

zomg.. it was only 5 sth 6 i guess.. so dark><

Later tat night, we went for dinner den went drinking again in city on sat night since we dunno wat to do.. ><

Both of us drank a jug of 'sex on the beach' n 3 cups of beer... 'sex on the beach' was nice!! =D

oh.. to make me high or drunk, we played the game 'I nvr...' Since both of us knew each other's secrets... hmm... we said everything we can just to get each other to drink... hahaha

So, Ying was high again =.= we could've just went back to my house since we were in city but she doesn't want.. so yea.. we sat train back.. n stopped at Caufield station bcos she wanted to pee!! ><

I drove to McD after we got down the Clayton station.. We ate some things den I drove back to her apartment.. wouldn't let her touch the car since she's already unstable while she's sane.. it's worse when she's not tat sane =.= Went back on sunday night..

The next friday.. I went to watch the movie 'Ugly truth' with my housemates =) the movie is good!! Starring Katherine Heigl, Gerald Butler n Eric Winter.. Eric Winter so handsome..

The movie synopsis is:

Abby Richter is a romantically challenged morning show producer whose search for Mr. Perfect has left her hopelessly single. She's in for a rude awakening when her bosses team her with Mike Chadway, a hardcore TV personality who promises to spill the ugly truth on what makes men and women tick.

The trailer is so funny.. should go watch... :D

Go see the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ByTRWrxxgF4

On sat, I went to watch Harry Potter with ying since she said it's a must watch bcos it's supposedly to be the last part that is gonna be made as a movie.. well.. it wasn't tat great.. more of the romance part only =.= no action.. haiz.. dun like the ending ><

After the movie, we went to eat dinner.. den chill at the melb central pub though I didn't drink.. cos I didn't feel like drinking.. lol.. n ying was behaving so abnormally good.. lol.. she drank only 1 glass of beer n very slowly.. hahaha.. she said she needs to be sane to drive home.. hmmm..

n after tat I had many assignments.. n had a test.. so i didn't go out much.. except with my housemates.. =)

btw.. my Macroeconomics professor reminds me of 'Snape' in 'Harry Potter' ><

well.. will update again..

xoxo

Near death experience ><

ok.. the topic explains it all ><

last tues evening.. her car suddenly came out this sign..

n den she called the technician...

the technician told her to slowly drive her car to the side n check.. when she was driving towards the side.. her cars slows down more n more.. n keeps jerking><

she knew something was wrong n quickly just parked her ca

r at the side of the road.. she came down n suddenly there w

ere flames..

there's a passerby who saw it n quickly ask my mom to take her important things n pulled her away from the car ><

the car became skeleton =.=''' it was really bad.. ><

my bro took some pics of it..

The policemen n forensic ppl came over.. Thank God my mom came out of the car.. the policeman said to my mom, she's VERY VERY LUCKY!!

the policeman had seen ppl burning together with the car because when the car starts to burn, the door will be automatically lock.. even though ppl tries to knock the window down, it will nvr break ><'''

My mom had to eat tranquiliser to sleep cos she was shocked by the incident.. sigh..

Well, I believe in miracles n glad tat my mom was safe n sound =) Angels will look after us no matter what happens!!

love u mom...

Updating...

It's been a long time since I've updated... hahaha.. or should i say I did update b4 but I took it down><

btw.. well... how my holidays went... I practically spent most of my time with family=)

went out with friends twice n went to pangkor laut resort for 3 days 2 nights.. people who does not know where is tat... this is the link : http://www.pangkorlautresort.com/

An extremely nice place :P

I've been back to melb on 25th morning.. went out for lunch with cia, rambert n syn on 26th for lunch... the dumplings which is "siu long bao" n "wo dip" is good!! It's in HuTong Dumpling Bar at 14-16 Market Lane, Melbourne, Vic 3000... hahahha.. anyone have the chance should go try it=P At night I ate Beef Casserole in red wine sauce... it's good too... just next to my house...

We kinda celebrate the last day of holiday i guess =.=' lol..

I had start my uni just a day back... trying to gear myself back to uni =.= sigh..

Tomorrow I won't have class as the first week don't hv tutorials!!! so happy!! hahaha...

Well, there was things that bothered me since long ago.. but today writing this I feel so relieved now for everything had past.. I got what I always wanted to know though many things cannot be answered now..

I will let go but I dun think I can forget though it's ur choice to forget.. cos maybe I'm not strong as u r.. I will try though.. ;p Thanks for the reply which u'll nvr reply last time... I understand ur intention all these while..

Past is the past... I realized to ignore the facts doesn't change the facts... maybe it made a very huge impact until someone needs to forget it but fact remains the fact... Regrets are not in my dictionary.. So I will try to make a better tomorrow!! =)

xoxo

Holiday

I've finished my exam last fri... =)

After exam, went out with jiang han n meng jiao since they're goin back the next day.. hehe..

didn't noe where to go...

we first went to eat our lunch since we were very hungry><

den we walked n walked n walked along collins street..

since we had nth to do.. we headed southbank n sat along the river to talk.. hahahaha

tat's how we spent our whole afternoon..

I know it sounds kinda lame.. but i think it was nice..

the weather was good too:P

The next day, me n jiang han went out since her flight was at night..

we went Brunswick to eat.. we ate lamb.. it was good!! hahahaha..

We didn't noe brunswick was kinda near my house..

next time might just go there to eat instead.. hehe..

after tat we went smith street.. bought my dad a timberland t-shirt..

Since we walked the whole journey, I was so tired tat night.. so was she.. hahaha..

but i think it's worse for her as she had to catch the 11.55pm plane n sit for around 10 hours of flight><

Now, I'm very free n bored............................

Most of my friends practically went home straight after their last paper.. sigh..

hmm.. this thurs gonna watch 'the proposal'!! heard ppl say it was very very nice.. hehe:P

I watched the trailer... looks humourous n good :D

this is the link to the trailer:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kPgZcW8MCaA

watch it... I think it's gonna be out on 30th July in Msia..

ok... can't wait to go home.. pray tat no one has swine flu in the same flight as me><

ps: plan wat r we gonna do.. hahaha.. don't let me plan.. thank you:P

xoxo

2nd June

hmmm.. since i'm lazy to study... i'll blog... ><

exams starting next week... haiz...... i hope i can finish studying by then..........>< 

92 cases to memorize!! shit.......

btw just wanna thank all those who wished me for my birthday!! hahaha... 

laine actually remembered my birthday!! hahaha.. thanks dear.. n to venn n vern.. thanks! =) though venn dun go online much.. still remember.. hahaha.. very good liao... ying's sms so funny.. but thanks!! love u guys... miss the times tat all 6 of us r together.. time flies... those days when we're innocent!! hahaha><

Thanks vern, jas n alicia for the blog =) 

so.... how did i spent my birthday? lets see...... hmmmm.........

my mom sent me a birthday card=)

well... 27th may.... i think i practically went to class since tat's my busiest day of the week.. hahaha.. after tat i went choir practice since i had my choir concert last sat, which is on 30th May..... After choir practice, shan gave me the cake she bought.. well.. cos we ran to choir the cake.... erm...... changed shape.. hahahaha... but anyway.. still good.. thx!!

BUT... my birthday not tat bad ler.....

on 22nd May, jiang han treat me koko black... lol!! yay... thanks =) mua...... 

den shu zhen took me out for lunch on 26th May... hahaha... can't make it on my birthday... sorry ah... hahaha... not ajak others de... :P

last but not least!! woohoo~~~~ my housemates!! on 29th May, I had my choir practice again at around 7pm... at first... I came back from class... I got a msg from Whitney saying tat she can't make it for the dinner she planned with me cos she'll be late... den alicia asked me m i goin to eat dinner here.. I said no den she said she wants to eat her dinner with Rambert.. so i said ok.... wanted to go city together at tat time... but she said she'll be goin off around 5.30... i said i had to leave earlier.. so i went.. waited for pui shan>< 

As the tram was late for alicia n syn.. they called pui shan to delay.. so i waited== when we're in the tram, asked her wat she wanted to eat.. so I just followed her... i was blur tat day actually><

After tat, I asked a table for 2... so I sat down... Actually they're just sitting the table next to me.. den I turned my head n saw whitney, cia n syn!! =) hehe.. wat a SURPRISE!! first time in my life leh... apart from my mom.. hahaha.. 

Thanks for the surprise n dinner.. also the card n the present:P

Love the t-shirt >>> "too busy to fcuk" hahahaha... nice one... 

ney: "baby... put ur lips on mine and i'll love u forever">> tat's my quote.. hahahaha... ceh.. write my quote on the card... lol.. neway i noe u feel blessed to be the same age... thanks alot babe.. >3 

Shan: will always treasure the time we go for choir together.. though we dun hv any same classes which i dun hv with anyone in the house.. hahahah... xoxo 

Syn: good luck in ur exams too!! =) dun play so much maple la!! hahaha... luv ya.. 

Cia: thanks... =) will remember the times we eat lunch and all together.. hahaha.. luv ya.. 

neway it's been a long time since 5 of us actually ate together.. though we're missing out shu zhen as she was always with us last time.... I appreciate the time together :P love u guys!! muaksss.....

well.. wish me luck for exams!! ><

ps: waiting to go home soon... weee~~~~~ 

xoxo

PBL!! ><

I know it's been a very very long time since I've updated my blog.. so sorry><

was very busy and especially lazy.. hahahaha.. 

I just finished my pbl (principles of business law) test.... *phew* My head now is filled with undue influence, duress,... n the case studies that I have to memorise which amounts to 40 of them.. haiz.. I'm feeling so relieved now.. was so stress over it.. haiz... This subject is a pain in my ass!! omg.. I dunno how would anyone like law=.=

btw.. I'll be having exams from 9th June till 19th June.. den I'll be going back to msia on 27th June for a month!! hahaha.. must spare me some time ok!! hahaha.. might be goin to Pangkor Laut resort though.. Since laine "took my mom's heart" by wishing her Happy Mother's Day.. hahaha.. my mom ajak her to go together with us.. LOL!! It's nice and thoughtful of her to wish my mummy:P 

Would probably have a week time to do shopping and hang around b4 I go back msia.. 

Another sem is gonna over... haiz.. time really flies.. 

Uni life is so different.. It's like when u meet someone new and just started to get to know each other better and become friends.. tat's when u finish ur sem n u hv to meet new people again>< 

Maybe I'm growing older.. hahahaha.. tired of having the feeling of excitement in meeting new people, new experience and surrounded by new environment.. 

Sometimes when u think distance will nvr affect any relationship.... ur wrong.. we human who are rational will think that to ourselves because everyone needs to move on.. but.. in reality.. distance does makes a different... if not alot... a little.. just hope that everything will just remain the same><

Life is so complicated.. sometimes u can be so rational that everyone thinks you're rational.. but sometimes u can be so emotionalo_O guess u guys have been confused by me too.. hahahaha.. 

Neway there's a movie called "ghost of girlfriends past".. OMG!! I wanna watch!! still haven got the time.. I dunno whether to watch it here or in msia.. it's out here dy.. but that movie is aired in msia on 4th of July i think.. 

That's all for now.. 

xoxo

Uni's life

Uni's life is not great ><><

last week, went out for lunch, shopping at DFO and to Moomba with ying and my housemates.. Ying again wants alcohol as usual... n she's always 'high' after drinking just a little amount of alcohol.. sweat!! hmmm.. we talked n talked as usual..


Pics from Moomba...

oh.. I love fireworks.. It gives me the feeling of hope, love and everything positive.. hehe:P but I prefer fireworks in Msia.. especially the time me, venn, laine, ying n ling spent 2009 new year.. also my farewell party in 2008!! :D miss those times together... dunno wat was ying doing.. hahahaha..

syn syn.. u think u can reach the tower ah?? lol..

ok.. tat's all for now.. will try to update as much as possible..

xoxo

After a long time..

ok.. I know it's been a long time since I've updated my blog.. haiz..

I had fun in Malaysia with my friends n now it's time to be back to uni.. ><

I miss u guys alot.. Hope u all miss me o!! LOL!! oh.. n miss ying too.. hehe:P I'm starting my class tomorrow.. sigh.. >< after a long holiday..

I quite like my timetable though.. Below is my timetable: oh btw.. My mom bought me a pen for luck into uni so tat i can be successful as she said.. hahaha.. :D I went out with Ying last sat n she stayed overnight.. so much things to chat about..
Ying says tat she always feel very innocent when talking to me.. ya right.. ahem ahem.. u say tat n u gave me a shocking news today!! Wasted all my saliva with those advice.. haiz.. I hope u noe wat u're doing ying.. ><

I realized sometimes I want to turn back time to where everyone was pure and innocent.. I think it's not only me because most ppl say tat, especially girls.. We don't care about anything, only about ourselves.. We love the person without any reasoning.. There's nothing much to think about and we don't care about ppl's view on anything.. BUT.. in life we're only suppose to look forward isn't it?

At this age, we don't see many fairy tale love anymore as what we girls always dreamt of.. the innocence of pure love.. But I realized it's enough that we once had that pure and innocent love because it's enough to have that beautiful memories.. Also the person we cannot get will always be in our heart.. Come what may.. Though fairy tale love may not exist, someday, someone might come into ur life n give u the same feeling as last time again.. hehe:P

Now it's time to put full force in uni now=) btw.. I've joined the Malaysians of melb uni society, international commerce student society and most probably will be joining the Duke of Edinburgh Award.. Hope everything will be good this year!!

that's all for now.. bye bye.. xoxo

Happy New Year 2009!!

hey everyone.. m back from Egypt.. haha.. but terribly sick... haiz...

well.. a new year is a start of a new venture!! Never look back and continue the journey that we have to cross.. Don't stop at the time where sadness overcomes us...

So lets start a new year by having new aims and plans..

A very happy new year to everyone!! :D

Happy New Year 2009!!

hope everyone have a great year ahead of us no matter whatever problems or heartaches in the past we gone through.. throw everything in the past away and move on to start a new journey..

Thanks to all of u who made my life so meaningful and special.. especially to my family and friends who walk through my life with me.. I had a great new year with my gang this year and hope everything will stay the same though I got more sick.. LOL!!

ps: Love your life without depending on others.. Don't tear for someone who is not worth it.. If that person is worth your tears, they'll nvr make you cry..

btw I love this song lyrics.. it's so meaningful.. :D

On my way here - Clay Aiken

I took my first step
On that black and white kitchen floor
I sometimes wonder if that house
Is even there, anymore
I had my first glimpse of love
When I was five
I watched two people split apart
But still the three of us survived

I’ve seen the best
I’ve seen the worst
I wouldn’t change what I’ve been through
I’ve touched the sky
I’ve hit the wall
But I did what I had to
Oooh

On my way here
Where I am now
I’ve learned to fly
I have to want to leave the ground
I’ve fallen hard
But I’ve been loved
And in the end it all works out
My faith has conquered fear
On my way here.

Oh yeah yeah

My address has changed
Almost every year
I’ve found that standing still
Can quickly make a lifetime disappear
I’d rather try and fail
A thousand times denied
And this, whenever you feel pain
It lets you know that you’re alive

I’ve been a fool
I’ve been afraid
Yeah, I’ve been loved
I’ve been lied to
I’ve been wrong
And I’ve been right
I stood up when I had to

Yeah Yeah

On my way here
Where I am now
I’ve learned to fly
I have to want to leave the ground
I’ve fallen hard
But I’ve been loved
And in the end it all works out
My faith has conquered fear
On my way here.

No guarantees
I believed that I would find
An open door or a light
To lead me to the other side
I guess that is why

On my way here
Where I am now
I’ve learned to fly
I have to want to leave the ground
I’ve fallen hard
But I’ve been loved
And in the end it all works out
My faith has conquered fear
On my way here