Egypt

Well.. as most of u noe tat i'll be goin Egypt tomorrow nite.. hehe:P
dun miss me ya :D

will be coming back on 29th Dec...

Today, went to watch stage show "Mamma mia".. not bad but the movie is nicer...

see u guys when m back...

wishing u guys Merry Christmas in advance!! enjoy ur holidays and as for some, enjoy studying!! :P

oh.. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY YING!! sorry cannot be there on ur birthday.. dun so disappointed or angry k.. hehe:P I told u earlier tat I won't be there dy.. u enjoy ur birthday dear!! miss n luv ya.. BFF :D see u in melb soon so u'll be bored with me.. lol!! need not to worry of not seeing me now.. hahaha..

ur cake:P

xoxo

Feelings

sigh.. sometimes I dun understand y i can be so insecure when facing my emotions.. ><

hate that feeling.. whereas I can be secure in all other things... except when dealing with feelings.. ish..

After that incident, I wanted to change but I realize when I come to that situation, I once again fail to do so =.=

wake up wake up!! learn from mistakes.. nvr let urself down..

Life have to go on and we should make the best of it..

"Happiness doesn't find you, u create it" How if only in life we don't need to think about consequences and what ppl think about us, we will live life to the fullest and we'll be happier ><

We must be strong to face all kinds of challenges and circumstances that comes in ur way.. mentally strong is the best solution...

Happy Birthday Alicia!!

As the title says, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!! :D

UR 18!! so old liao but still look like a kid.. hahaha.. OMG!!! if anyone dun believe look at this>>>>>right right?? :P okok... better dun say dy... =.= later kena marah n MUST GIVE U FACE ON UR BIRTHDAY!! LOL!!

neway celebrated with u last tues dy.. the movie Bolt was funny!! dun deny it.. dun say i laugh alot.. hahaha... hope u like ur present ler... :D

Hope u have a nice 18th birthday and enjoy urself.. Everything u wish for comes true..

ps: legal age can do anything dy... hahahahaha.. dun tell Rambert, later he kill me><

xoxo... luv ya!! :p

laptop

well.. syn wants me to upload pics on the new laptop I bought =.=

went to pc fair yesterday.. bought a laptop and an external hard drive (1 tb) :Doh btw.. since I've uploaded my laptop.. I let u see the hard disk lah.. since u hv the same one as me.. hahaha.. I bought the hard disk with my own money lah.. hahaha.. =.= it's this big>>
quite big isn't it?? :P but it's 1 tera.. nvm lah.. hahahah.. so happy liao lah?? u got ur 1 tb hard disk.. hahaha..

k ler.. tat's all.. kena marah from lots of ppl liao.. >< *all the jealous kia* hahahah.. learn from venn's language.. lol

tomorrow goin out with cia and zhen to mv...

xoxo

Outing with gang

well.. last thurs I got results for Trinity Foundation!! =) was very happy and our plan to clubbing went as planned.. hahaha... my dad's sooooo nice.. he actually let me use the driver n he had to drive himself to work the next day.. lol!!

We went Euphoria (MOS) for clubbing.. not bad.. i think it's better than Barcelona.. well.. things happen but overall I think we're quite satisfied.. It ended at 3am.. after that we went AC to eat supper n chit chat.. hahaha.. so we reached home at around 6am..

Lots of things happened.. Well.. dunno wat's my feelings after seeing sth.. lol.. maybe akward?? I guess tat's the best word describing my feelings.. hahaha..

ying, me n laine

me and venn

After goin home, we slept for only like 2 hours?? den my friends hv to go to college while me and ying went for breakfast and went to her house.. Met the others in Sunway tat afternoon to sing karaoke.. and guess wat?? we bumped into Ang!! lol.. long time no see.. hahaha.. but we were really tired >< haiz.. now gonna sleep.. haha..

xoxo

Home

well guys.. lol.. blog liao lah.. hahaha...

I'm back in Malaysia.. hahaha.. very tired.. haiz..

cut my hair yesterday.. hehe:P I guess m gonna highlight my hair b4 I go back to aus.. my mummy agreed.. haha..

Well.. Trinity foundation had ended n waiting for my results which is gonna come out on the 6th of Dec at 9am.. hahaha..

The time in Trinity, I had made alot of friends and some will be my lifetime friends who shares everything. Though we might have argued and all.. I hope our friendship will still continue to be the same way as always. Appreciate those times when we have difficulties and tried to solve everything together..

neway my friend told me sth last week which made me realized that because I dun tell my problems out cos I dun wanna fan ppl shows that I make them feel we're not close friends>< I hope those who feels that way will still be there for me when I need them. It doesn't mean that I'm not treating u as a close friend but it's just too important to not make u all fan for my probs. May m wrong so I will try telling...

Btw, this thurs and fri will have plans with my gang but dunno whether will it work.. lol... I very guai wan ok!! u all so naughty.. hahah.. dun make me naughty in msia ah:P

will blog another time..

Holiday!!

My last exam was on last thurs... :P

Jacinta and I went with our China friends for karaoke.. hehe.. from 7pm till 3 am!! o_O
After we walk home... >< lol... tram not working at tat time.. haiz..
my China friends stayed in our house kitchen until 5.30am
den they went home using tram =)

the next day.. with my panda eyes O_O me and my housemates went to St Kilda beach!!
We saw penguins there... the uncle showed us.. hahahaha...We played until evening.. came back for dinner..
was soooooo tired >< lol...

They wanted to play bowling on saturday.. but den my mom wanted to talk to me and I was tired too.. so they went.. haiz...

On Sunday... I went to Planet Shakers church.. It was cool..
after lunch went to the park with Whitney...

In the park, saw many weird parents.. lol... i laugh till my jaw nearly drop... hahaha...

Yesterday I went for badminton!! it's been a long time since I've played.. hahaha...
from 3.45 till 5

Body a lil aching now.. but not really.. lol...

Today at 1pm.. goin to the airport to fly to Sydney to meet my dad..
My flight is at 3.45pm...

Packed everything I guess.. hehe:P

Will be back on 27th.. daddy's coming back with me!! lol
before he goes back must sapu his money.. HAHAHAHAHHAA... *evil grin*

kk... will blog again bout my Sydney trip if there's anything nice.. lol..

till then...

xoxo
u know u miss me :P

PS: omg... go watch gossip girls.. it's nice!! :P

amazed

today kinda emo.. dunno y.. haiz...

There's so much in my mind...

I read through many ppl's blog n I'm amazed by ying's courage to write whatever she wants without thinking what others will think about her.. she wrote about discrimination towards gay...

I hope I can be like those ppl who don't care what ppl feel and don't bother ppl's feelings... how hard to be a nice person...

I like this quote which I found:
I've made mistakes in my life.
I've let people take advantage of me,
and I accepted way less than I deserve.
But, I've learned from my bad choices and
even though there are some things I can never
get back and people who will never be sorry.
I'll know better next time and I won't settle for
anything less than I deserve.
Be more concerned with your character
than your reputation because your character
is who you truly are and your reputation is merely what other think you are.
I've learned that GOODBYES will always hurt,
Pictures will never replace having been there,
Memories good or bad, will always bring tears and those words can never
replace those feelings.
Sometimes, we need to stop analyzing the [past]...
stop planning the (future)...
stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel, stop deciding with our mind of what we want our heart to feel...
sometimes, we just have to go with "whatever happens, happens."

Neway I still have lots of work to complete which I haven done... haiz... ><

Will be having my exams on the 18th and 19th of sept.. den having hols for 2 weeks.. going sydney on 23rd to meet my dad and coming back to melb with him on 27th...

After a long time...

LOL!! my blog is practically dead ><
well.. who ask me to be so lazy:P

just to update ppl...
I'm practically quite busy now but still kinda lazing around=.=
hv to pass up my HOI essay next week and start with my accounts essay=(

oh btw.. I've got my debate topics today and hv to present it next week!! haiz...
we hv to vote for 3 topics.. n practically everyone wanted the topic on "homosexuality should be legalized in all countries".. UNFORTUNATELY I DIDN'T GET TAT TOPIC as teacher chose us...
So do u noe wat's the other topics???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!! IT'S "Prostitution should be legalized in all countries" and "Pornography should be banned in all countries" =.=' sweat

ok.. so u noe y i want the homosexuality topic instead of others.. ish.. those guys all pakat to choose the other 2 topics and so we got those topics.. ish ish.. geram...

I got the topic on "prostitution should be legalized in all countries" haiz.. n the worst thing is I'm supporting tat proposition.. darn.... :S and my other partners are both guys!! how akward.. >< a girl supporting prostitution???!!

ok.. so we started on our drama practice.. which takes up quite alot of my time :S

the story is about a guy choosing among 2 girls.. one is his current gf and the other one is a girl he just met which is beautiful.. haha.. we're gonna use Jessica Alba and Emma Watson as his gf:P
So, we four girls will be that guy's emotions.. We just chose the characters yesterday.. I nearly got the sexy character..... sweat!! >< Luckily in the end I got the serious character.. well.. today we tried with music and placings.. huhuhuhu.. it's kinda fun though..

We force the one doing sexy character right now, which is Holly from UK to wear kinda like very seductive style.. but but.. she's not tat daring either.. so we're gonna hv kinda like a modeling session next mon.. lol.. we still have around 4-5 weeks b4 the real exam for drama!! lol.. hope we can do well.. hehe:P

ok.. tat's all for now.. I'm gonna do my hw b4 doing my HOI essay..

xoxo

I'm back

I've been so lazy to blog =.=

well.. I'm back in Melb since a week ago..

got back my results.. I think it's ok ler.. reached my target for the 1st sem but must study from now onwards =.= *cross-fingers*

HOI essay have been assigned again!! omg.. tonight hv to read 4 of those books which I borrowed from the library that have to be return tomorrow.. haiz..

I dun wanna read so I'm blogging now.. haha..

I was in Malaysia for my 2 weeks break..

I had a wonderful n busy time.. thx to my friends and family who kept me busy.. hehe:P

Went clubbing twice.. once with my friends and another time with my cousin:D
was quite fun though things happen..

I just read everyone's blog and came across Yisan's blog which says about me as we met up

"Where should I start?

I met my friend who came back from Australia the other day. She seemed so happy and she had genuine laughter. A thought suddenly came across my mind: I was once so happy like her… where did all my laughter go?

Was it because I stayed at home for too long till my laughing machine became rusty?

Or was it the fact that I was hurt deeply in the heart till..?

Whatever the answer is... it won’t bring back my super laughter machine to life anyway..

I also noticed that I recently became quiet. Recently as in since February or something. Or was I like that all the time? I’m not too sure.

This is not me. I’m supposed to be the happiest person.. I thought I was. Until I met my friend.. no I am not jealous of her laughing machine.. I just wanna be the way I used to be... Happy inside out.."

Is it true? Is this laughter genuine? or I'm just acting it out in front of everyone else to make myself happy? I dunno.. I'm confused myself..

Ying was in Melb last whole week.. Since she was here.. I asked her to stay over my place on fri night=)

She bought a bottle of white wine and we drank while having our dinner.. lol.. I wasn't high but my face was red.. haha.. n ying as usual was kinda high like the truth and dare day.. LOL!! not as high as tat though.. cos we were outside..

After tat we went to Koko Black.. met up with my friends den we head back to my place.. caught up with all the chattings since she was having exams when I was back in Msia..

well.. much of our secrets been said.. so ying.. dun break ur promise.. remember not to tell anyone.. hehe:P n m still GUAI!!

actually to say the truth.. I've tried hard to forget bout it.. though i noe it's nearing 2 years ying.. =.= U think easy meh? but den when u brought it up again.. sigh.. I didn't know tat so many ppl actually kinda noe it.. haiz.. *stunned*

Watched Batman 2-The Dark Knight yesterday.. was a great show but a lil complicating.. Remembering the phrase "The truth is always not the best" when Alfred burned the letter from Rachel to Wayne.. that's so true.. this is life.. and last night I dreamed again.. haiz.. well.. back to reality.. goin to read my 4 books now.. Hoping everything will be right as there's no turning back..

I got an email from my friend and I like those words..
Read Carefully and Understand the Meanings:
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push!
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
True friendship never ends.

Friends are forever.

Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Everything is ok in the end. If it's not ok, then it's not the end.

Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.

If u love something...let it go.
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.

A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug until its from the one ur thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come true. LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u.

Till here.. au revoir.. will update if I'm not lazy.. hehe:P

exams coming!!

hmm.. I was sick past few weeks.. now only getting better.. haiz..

I'm starting my exams on 21st june n finishing on the 26th june:D

Well.. Since I dun hv exam on 27th june, we're goin shopping!! haha.. den will be goin back on 28th!! can't wait to see all of u!! hehe:P dun miss me too much k.. haha.. will be goin back soon..

newayz I got my drama exam marks back!! well I got 8.75/10.. ok lah.. teacher commented quite alot n say tat I could've done better.. wants me to do better for the next term:D

I also got back my oral presentation which is 4.75/5.. haiz.. mummy said I should get 5.. but but.. no one got 5.. so must buck up..

Oh.. n I got my accounts essay back!! :D I got 5/5.. yay!! though lots of ppl got 5.. nvm.. still happy.. hehe:P

Maths is kinda tough now =.= n my econs!! lots of graphs to understand!! sobsob.. stupid graphs!! monopoly got own graph, perfect competition got own graph =.= dunno wat MC=MR den dunno wat.. haiyo.. pening kepala.. haha.. practically m scared of all my exams.. lol..

I still got my literature essay to finish up!! omg o_O I heard lots of ppl finish dy.. haiya.. me goin nuts.. k k.. pray for my exams though.. haha..

neway laine.. surely will go out with u lah when m back!! just like last time.. no worries.. dun cry when see me!! haha.. later I dunno wat to do again.. hehe:P enjoy ur holidays now n stop worrying bout those thing.. hmm.. and to my 'lovely friend' haha.. If we can't meet up since u're having ur exams tat time.. we'll go out when u come here k?? :D I'll surely make myself free.. lol.. good leh me.. haha.. erm.. I'll try to hv a party lah.. or just our gang overnight on fri night lo.. do whatever we want.. see first ler k:P

since m goin back.. all of u must make time for ME, ME AND ONLY ME!! LOL!! k k..

I've dy asked my mom to ask the maids to cook soup for me so tat when I reach home I can drink it straight away!! haha..

Tat day when I was talking to my mom on the phone.. She said someone changed alot.. not like last time anymore.. haha.. well.. I said tat too but since tat person dun think so I hv nth to say.. k ler shin.. I've updated!! haha.. must make time for me k!!

tata..

Sunday's dinner

hmm.. last Sun we cooked Bak Kut Teh.. hehe:P
After so long.. we started to cook again.. lol.. miss the days we cook n eat together in a table like a family:D

Hope we cook more often!! Whitney!! dun go out so often ler.. hehe:P n hope our hw won't stop us from cooking:D

May 27 2008

Just came back from dinner...

candle -LEGAL AGE- hehe:P

Firstly, I wanna thank all those who wished me Happy Birthday.. love you guys!!:D

Ying, m 2 hours ahead of Malaysia.. haha.. not 3.. ling.. I noe u saw Shuet's pm.. but nvm.. n laine.. haha.. after 9 years of friendship, this is the first time u remembered my birthday.. lol.. though it was a lil late.. Thanks shin for the blog n shuet for the wish.. even to Bee who wrote me a blog n Herng!! thank you.. miss u guys:D

well.. last night 12 midnight, my housemates and SZ actually came over to my room n bang the door until the door nearly tumble to wish me happy birthday..

i was stunned.. haha.. thx!!

Today.. I planned to go out n eat to celebrate my birthday:P

So, we went Vina Bar.. the food there was good.. hehe.. thx to Whitney's and Alicia's recommendation.. lol...

they went to book at 6.30 but was a lil late as they slept so Shan n Whitney ran there first.. lol.. everyone was kinda tired actually cos we slept very late last night..

After eating, Whitney acted shocked and whispered sth to Shan's ear.. I didn't noe wat happened.. was curious.. haha.. but den later Shan went in to the restaurant.. den Alicia said wanna go toilet with Shan..

They took quite a long time, so I look back n saw them standing at the cashier tat part.. I didn't know wat were they doing so I continued talking to the others.. haha..

Shan n Alicia got caught up with the cake in the entrance of the restaurant.. so I turn back n saw the cake.. I was stunned.. hehe:P

They asked me to pretend tat I dunno there's a cake.. so I turned back n they sang birthday song for me while bringing the cake over.. hehe:P

I dun hv the photos with me as it's all in their camera.. but the cake's from Brunetti.. it's called "flourless".. LOL.. wat kinda name.. tat's wat they said.. but it was nice:D

Thanks for everything unit 126 n gang.. U guys rox to the max!! love you guys so much... n thanks for the present.. Suddenly I realised tat I've became a mom.. one by one calling me "mummy" haiz.. haha.. all ur fault Alicia!!

I only got a few pics.. will upload soon when I get it from them..

Thanks once again!! Thanks for all u guys hv done to make such a day so special!!:P Thanks for being there..

oh.. n Alicia told us tat Shan actually scolded the Brunetti worker bcos they put there 16 instead of 18.. HAHA..

Shan had became a Malaysian since staying in unit 126!! hehe:P I love u all.. "unit 126 people" (Shan, Whitney, Alicia, Jsyn) n Shu Zhen..

Diary with decorations internally by Unit 126, pencil box n stickers(monkey) lol

from the cake..

-cheers- Jocelyn xoxo
u noe u love me:P

Crazy...

I did my accounts essay until 4am the night b4.. haiz.. m goin nuts!!

The accounts essay is more like u use it when u're working??!! o_O

I thought A levels was harder than us... but.. when I asked my friend who's having her finals soon bout advantages and disadvantages of accrual and cash accounting.. she doesn't know.. ish.. n how would i know how to manipulate accrual accounts when i just learnt? haiz...

So I went to library research loh.. haiz.. but luckily my daddy, the angel came to rescue!! haha.. he stayed up until 2 am in Malaysia to teach me.. hehe:P YAY!! how nice of him... lol..

So I finished my accounts essay in one night.. We have to write 750-1000 words.. At first I thought it was impossible.. haha.. but I did it!! wooohoooooo... :P

Now... concentrating on my history of ideas essay again... dunno wat's the use of doin when it actually won't help me future but to analyse... *rolling eyes*

There are 2 questions... 1st question is "How do u explain the success of Athenian civilization" and 2nd is "Was Tiberius Gracchus a friend or an enemy of freedom" I chose the 1st one of course!! haha.. I think when I go back I should be very good in history.. lol...

Neway... econs is getting tougher.. so many graphs to learn.. headache.. ish.. dun even hv time to actually revise to understand econs.. hv to faster finish up this essay to revise if not i dun understand.. hmm...

kk... goin crazy.. tat's all.. haha..

Meaningful...

I got this email from my friend and found it very meaningful...

To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
給我單身朋友們

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But
愛就像一隻蝴蝶。越要追牠，卻越要逃避。

if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can
如果就隨牠自由的飛，牠會在你最不注意時飛向你。

make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it
愛使人快樂，卻常傷害人。但只有在你把愛給了一個真正值得付出的人時，是最珍貴的。

to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.
所以，花點時間去選擇最好的他 /她吧

To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
給我那不是單身的朋友們

Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about
愛不能使他 /她成為一個 '完美的人'

finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.
它卻可以使你找到一個幫你成長的他 /她

To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
給我玩世不恭的朋友們

Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they
如果你不在乎，不要說 '我愛你 '。如果他們不在時，不要討論自已的感受

aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look
不要涉足會使他人心碎的生活。

in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is
說謊時，不要看著眼睛。

to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...
最殘忍的事莫過於男人讓女人愛他，卻是逢場作戲。反之亦然 …

To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
給我已婚的朋友們

Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry.' Not 'where are you',
不要老是說 '這是你的錯 '，何不說說 '對不起 '。

but 'I'm right here.' Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.' Not 'I
不要老是問 '你去哪裡了 '，何不說說 '我就在這兒等著你 '。
不要老是問 '你怎麼會這麼作？ '，何不說說 '我了解你 '。

wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.'
不要老是說 '我希望你這麼做 '，何不說說 '我感謝你的一切 '。

To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
給我那已訂婚的朋友們

The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other.
要真正衡量包容心，不是看在一起幾年了，而是要看彼此的敬愛

To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
給我心碎的朋友們

Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go.
心碎的時間和傷害的深度，完全取決於你自已。

The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.
難的是，如何從中學習，而不是從傷痛中爬起。

To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE
給我所有天真的朋友們

How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too
要如何戀愛？ --就愛吧。不要欲言又止；要互相協調，不要太固執；

persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand,
要分享，且千萬不要有不公平；要了解，別命令；

and get hurt but never keep the pain.
受傷後不要再記恨。

To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
給我積極的朋友們

It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but
看到你所愛的他 /她和其他人很快樂使你心碎

it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.
但知道你所愛的他 /她是和你在一起不快樂，令人更加的傷心。

To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS
給我害怕去承認的朋友們

Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when
當你和他 /她分手時，愛受到傷害

someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you
當他 /她和你分手時，更是傷痛

love has no idea how you feel.
但傷害最深的是你所愛的他 /她完全無法了解你的感受

To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON
給我那還在等待的朋友們

A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now.
人生最傷心的事，是你和他 /她愛情長跑了多年，最後的結局卻不如所望。' 如果他/ 她現在讓你覺得不值得付出，那麼一年，甚至十年後，都不會值得付出的。

Let go.....
讓他 /她走吧

TO ALL MY FRIENDS.......
給我所有的朋友們

My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature, never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.
我竭誠祝福你們愛著一個誠實、強壯、成熟、衷心、有衝勁、保護你、積極、值得付出和無私的他 /她。

loving this song and the lyrics

Mariah Carey: Bye Bye
This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

How if this really happens to someone I care alot....

On friday night, we have this Trinity Autumn night concert..

well.. tat's not the main point.. one of my palmerston mate who m not tat close with.. she happily came back from the concert and dinner at around 9 i guess.. this is told by my friend who was in the same house as her as she saw everything happened..

My friend wanted to use the toilet at around 10 sth.. As there's 2 toilets.. she used the other one because there's someone inside.. My friend also tried to go in another time at around 11 sth.. but still there's ppl inside.. she thought it was another person..

but who knows.. there's a guy who always find her waited in tat girl's place for around 1 hour and he asked the other housemates where's she.. My friend said she came back but dunno where's she.. then.. he asked them to open the toilet door as feels sth fishy..

Since they have the toilet key.. another 2 housemates went to open the door and saw her lying on the floor, curled up, unconscious.. face as white as paper and she was tightly clinching her fist near to her chest.. they quickly called our palmerston's owner and they came running.. my friends and other of her housemates quickly tried their best to dress her.. At first she wasn't shaking but later when they dress her body starts shivering but she's still unconscious the whole time..

tat guy stood in the kitchen waiting.. everyone was very very scared.. even Uncle Bruce.. I heard my friend said his legs were shaking as everyone doesn't know wat's happening.. after dressing her up.. uncle bruce quickly carried her to her room..

The ambulant came in 5 mins.. they tried to wake her up, inject here and there.. After trying for around 1 hour plus.. she's still unconscious.. the people asked her housemates wat happened and all.. then tat guy blamed them and say tat if he didn't come den no one would ever know she's inside.. he even blamed himself for not finding her earlier and banged his head on the wall.. actually he cannot blame anyone as there's so many ppl is staying there so they wouldn't know who's using the toilet and there's like 2 toilets.. but it's understandable when u like a person..

The guy went to the hospital with aunt Sue the whole night.. she had an operation.. they found out tat her blood vessel in the brain broke.. they said it was an old blood clot in the brain and suddenly just broke..

Her mother just came this morning and when I see her mom's face I really can cry.. She's now in comma.. still in ICU i think.. Don't know whether can wake up or not.. I hope tat she'll be alright.. Lets pray and hope tat she'll wake up and be alright..

I really can't imagine if this really happens to anyone I care for.. Life is unpredictable.. Therefore, appreciate and be happy always!! Give ur love to people u care for and tell them b4 it's too late.. because life is short.. no one knows wat happens next..

Pray for tat girl to wake up..

Can u believe wat m i doing?? o_O

OMG!! I never knew I'll do this kinda things.. haiyo..

We have to do history of ideas essay so we have to collect resources from the library.. but the reserved books can only be borrowed for 1 day the most.. some 2 hours.. wth.. haiz..

So as we don't wanna waste money photostating those pages we need.. We decided to take photos using camera o_O aiyoyo.. people normally use camera to take beautiful pictures.. we use to take books:S lol.. LOOK>>>>
I stayed up nearly every night until 3 just to take pics.. haiz.. nearly 10 books!! just to get those information..

N we have essay for accounts.. I dun understand y when no other coll have essay on accounts.. darn.. my housemates damn good.. no one is taking except accounts except for one who is studying in Taylors.. ish.. so they don't have essay to do:(

kk.. so u can see how busy m i.. but still slacking quite a bit.. ish.. have to work hard!! :P

Depressing weather

Weather here is damn depressing man since it's autumn.. haiz.. The sky is dark when it's only 5 sth 6 pm.. OMG!! n it's raining.. haih.. When it's winter time, I dunno how it will be.. sighhhhhhhhhhhh...

Oh.. n my father's back to Malaysia last night.. He stayed with me last weekend until monday afternoon n he flew off to Sydney..

This term should be quite stressful.. I've already got my history of idea's essay and no one really know wat to do with it.. haiz.. I think my accounting essay will be coming up this week too..

Maths is getting tough dy.. especially when I dun like drawing all sorts of graph of log and bla bla bla.. but can do lah.. haiz.. My friends all said Maths 1 harder than Maths 2.. I also dunno y I didn't take Maths 2.. ish.. I should have so I wouldn't have much to worry about Economics!!

Everyone is freaking me out with stupid Economics!! ish.... not only commerce students, even my science friends are all saying economics is very hard bla bla bla.. haiyo.. den alot of ppl drop economics and took Psychology.. ish.. I also wanna take lah.. but........ I thought of taking it next year for my breadth sub instead.. cos.. Economics is more relevant to wat i wanna take n my dad said it would be easier next time when I go Uni..

I heard Psychology is damn fun.. sigh...................... nvm lah!! I must work hard... haiz.. now.. with the depressing weather.. I dun feel that happy.. easily to get sick too.. haiz..

Yesterday I had my economics lecture though it's a public holiday.. pity me.. because we would be left out when others are ahead of us.. after tat I meet my friends in City.. Since they don't hv class they went down first.. We ate duck rice.. lol.. my friends didn't wanna go back to our place to eat so we went City..

Tat's all for now.. will blog the next time.. BUSY BUSY BUSY!!

Can I do it?

I've got back a few exam papers.. haiz.. I got only 4/5 for literature and 15/20 for economics!!

Suddenly I feel so bad.. I really dunno whether I can make it into Uni of Melbourne.. I'm very scared now.. haiz..

I have to start to be hardworking dy.. no lazing around like last time.. I'm so worried..

I heard tat there's a guy from China got like full marks for all sub.. I was like OMG!!O_O He got 100 for phy, maths 1 & 2 and chem.. haih.. stresssssssssssssssssssssssss......

nvm.. I guess I just need to work hard and smart from now!!

For those of you are gonna have ur exam, all the best!!

Venn, u told me ur final exam is starting on 25th of April I think.. lol.. forgotten ler.. one more week to go only.. btw all the best.. I hope you really do well in ur exam =) I know you can do it.. Don't be stress and panic.. I give u my strength mentally.. haha.. do your best k.. don't fall sick.. hehe:P take care.. STUDY HARD K!! no more fooling around.. miss n love ya.. haha..

Friends forever... lol

You know who you are since I've told you I'll write u a blog.. haha..

Neway, I just wanna say.. everything have passed a long time and tat u should be happy for the person you once loved..

I've gave you all the advice i can.. Remember friends forever lah!! haha..

U lah.. offline tat time say this kinda things make me sms u.. grrrrrr.. den...... I SMS THE WRONG PERSON!! haiyo.. I dunno whether she read or not.. If she read I die lah.. geez..

Neway y must go clubbing to find new friends?? lol.. when u start coll tat time also surely can find new friends dy lah..haiyo.. and ur bday long time to go ler.. U want me to go clubbing with you for ur bday?? siao ah?? Tat time I'm in Aus loh.. hehe:P

Go overseas study lah.. u so rich.. haha..

k ler.. hope you find someone who u really can be with lah.. LOL!! Suddenly je wanna be alone and feel tired dy.. not like u leh:P

I know you miss me.. hahahahaha..

Chapel Street

Yesterday we went to Chapel street!! There's so much things to shop over there!! damn nice.. haiz.. but nvr buy anything.. sad right?

nvm.. my dad's coming this wed!! wheee... maybe can buy.. haha..

We left the house around 12 and came back around 5.. How i wish i was working here so i can buy.. lol...

My friends bought lots of stuff though.. haha..

They bought things from Lululemon and Bloom!!

In the afternoon, we ate Grill'd.. The burgers there are BIG and nice.. haha..

From the left, clockwise: Alicia, Whitney, Jacinta, Shu Zhen, Pui Shan, Me!!
Isn't the burger huge?!! I've already ate a quarter of it..

We also camwhored in the restaurant! LOL..
Who wins the competition?? haha..

Last night we watched Pirates of the Carribbean 3 cos a few friends of mine didn't watch..

Oh.. n since it's expensive to watch movies over here.. we rent movie!! haha.. last few days we watched Lust, Caution.. OMG!! o_O

U dun believe it!! the part is so gross!!! I practically close my eyes the whole scene as it was quite long as it's uncensored.. so damn rough man!! Whitney's face is so damn funny!! should hv take picture or record down lah!! haha.. Whitney and Jacinta is not underage to watch tat show so they can see.. haha.. but it's really damn gross!!

Oh, forgotten to tell.. I change my contact lens colour again.. erm.. it's pure hazel.. but can't see much ler.. haha..

Do I look happier when I'm in Aus?? Shuet May says I look happier o.. haha..
Maybe ler.. There's things I've let go and no need to think.. lol..
I've learned how to take things easy dy gua Shuet!! learn from me ler.. bluek :P

School's starting tomorrow!! sigh... how fast holidays are over.. sobsob.. haiz.. Start working hard again!!

Well, my aunt says tat there's a reason for me to not do well last year since she knows.. but when I think to myself.. I don't think tat there's an excuse!! It's childish to not differentiate priorities in life.. Though it's hard to do it and may not promise tat I won't be the same next time I'll do my best to remember my mistakes.. As ppl says learn from mistakes..

I'll try not to let anyone down!!:D

Looking forward for my dad to come this wed.. but dunno which day only i'll meet him.. hehe:P

Is it true?

Well.. I took the character analysis test and this is wat it says:

I'm a grass-fragrance type

You have very strong will, not dependent on others and gives an impression of being a lone-ranger. You are extremely curious and sensual, living a clear-headed, modern life. At first glance you place yourself on a pedestal and are difficult to get along. But once others talk to you, they know you are easygoing. And when the relationship develops, they realize you are affable. You have an androgynous charm, which makes you popular with all genders. But you don't like your weak side to be seen. You might look cool on the surface, but beneath it all, you are really Passionate. Only people who know your true self can maintain a long-lasting relationship with you.

haha.. is it true?? hmm.. *wondering*

Friends

These are my housemates:From the left: Shu Zhen(not my housemate but hang out with us everyday, KL), Jacinta(Sabah), Me, Pui Shan(HK), Whitney(Johor) in Koko Black

There's another girl from my house didn't go out with us tat night :D

Mostly we hang out at Lygon street as it's quite near our place and tat's the place where u can get everything!! hehe..

We went out around 10 and ordered some desserts to eat!! lol..Isn't the penguin cute? hehe:P

I'm glad to have such nice housemates we rock!! lol..

We get along quite well and help each other out while having fun together too!!

Yesterday night we cooked lamb and mash potato..

We also baked alot of things such as pastries, muffin and lots more.. We plan to bake brownies this week too.. haha.. spend quite alot of money on food these few days as we have holidays

Not forgetting we did ice-cream too!! cool leh.. :P

Oh btw.. there's a channel showing dancing competition.. damn nice!! it's called "So you think u can dance". They dance all kind of dance, from latin to hip hop to all kinds!! n they just have 2 days to learn up the dance for every week o_O geng man!!

Their body damn nice!! I can go gagagagaga.. LOL!! the guys all got six pack!! omg.. damn nice body and they dance so well... haha..

kk.. lots of nice shows here lah..

yikes!! spend quite a bit while having my holiday dy.. haiz..

Well.. another week left to start school again!! so won't spend so much dy.. hehe:P

relieved

well.. I just got the news from my mom.. my grandma's ok!! :D

It's just asthmatic and sth.. well.. they gave her sth dy..

My mom said she very energetic!! lol.. can even watch tv.. but still need to stay in hospital to monitor her for bout 4-5 days..

Yay!! hehe:P

Worry

I just talked to my grandma last few days through webcam..

Suddenly, today afternoon, my mom msn me and told me that my grandma is admitted into Pantai hospital..

She got fluid in her lungs!! sobsob.. I hope I can be by her side so tat I can take care of her. haiz:(

Last night, she was whizzing and can't get the mucus out and so she went to doctor to check this morning.

Luckily she went to check.. If it prolonged she might get pneumonia..

I'm not really sure about her condition now but my mom said they will pump the fluid out..

I'll wait for the news.. Hope she'll be well soon!! Pray for my grandma............

Love her so much... and miss her!! I wanna go back and be by her side!! I know she wants me there too..

pray hard.........

Crazy!!

Remember I said tat there's strong wind here.. It was 40m/s!!

Today I heard someone died hit by a wall in Melbourne Central!! not hit the wall.. IS HIT BY THE WALL!! not kidding.. that's how strong the wind is.. can even blow down a cement wall.. scary and dangerous.. O_O

Today I just laze around the house as it's raining.. don't feel like goin out..

I just went out to FCUK at Lygon street to meet up with Zawanah to get a book from her for lit..

At first just meet her to take the book but in the end we window shopped for awhile den only we head home..

Me and my house mates baked muffins and some pastries in the afternoon:P hehe.. was quite nice..

Tomorrow I think we're gonna make ice cream!! :D can't wait!!

Oh.. I trimmed my fringe on my own as it's quite long dy.. lol.. looks like I'm quite pro.. haha!!

I hope this holiday won't pass so fast.. haiz..

It's getting cold here.. and my dad's coming down here 16th April for work.. he'll pass me things as he'll stay 2 days longer to meet up with me:D

I'll make him buy me clothes!! lol.. if can.. hehe

Tagged by Ling

- You -
First Name - Zi-Zhen Jocelyn
Nickname - Joc, jie(laine calls tat. LOL!), Chocel, Honey babe dunno wat..... lol(u noe who u r lah)
Name you wish you had - I'm happy with my name
What do people normally mistake your name as - erm.. no gua..
Birthday - 27th May 1990
Birthplace - Selangor
Time of Birth - err.. 4 sth pm gua?? forgotten ler..
Single or taken - Single
Zodiac sign - Gemini

-Your Appearence-
How tall are you - Erm. I think around 158cm.
Wish you were taller - Duhh
Eye color - Dark brown
Eye color you want - same wan lah as now there's such thing called contact lens.. haha
Natural Hair color - Dark brown
Current Hair color - Dark brown
Short or long hair - Long
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color - Nope
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair - err.. nth gua..
Glasses or contacts - Both..
Do you wear make-up - When i was working or when my friends force me!! haha..
Ever had hair extensions - No
Paint your nails - A few times?
Bath and Body products? Sunsilk and Shokubutsu

-In the opposite gender-
What color eyes - Anything also can
What color hair - Anything normal.. not green or whatever.
Shy or Outgoing - Mixed.
Looks or personality - Both. hehe:P
Sexy or Cute - Sexy.. haha
Serious or Fun - Both ler.. if not serious how to work??
Older or Younger than you - Older.
A turn on - dunno.
A turn off - negative personality, such as drug addict

-This or that-
Flowers or Chocolate - Both also can.
Pepsi or Coke - Coke.
Rap or Rock - Depends
Relationship or One night stand - Relationship. lol..
School or Work - School
Love or Money - haiya.. so difficult to choose wan.. haiz.. choose both lah.. haha
Movies or Music - Music.
Country or City - City
Sunny or Rainy days - Sunny
Friends or Family - Both

-Have you ever-
Lied - who nvr lied b4?
Stole something - err.. no i guess..
Smoked - tried but was given by my aunt..
Hurt someone close to you - Sure I did..
Broke someone's heart - ya gua..
Had your heart broken - yea
Wish you were a prince/princess - sometimes.. haha
Liked someone who was taken - nope
Shaved your head - no!!
Been in love - yup
Used chopsticks - duhh..
Sang in the mirror to yourself - Yes

-Favorites-
Flower - Lily?? haih.. dunno ler..
Candy - don't really eat candy..
Song - too many
Scent - refreshing type
Color - green!! I guess me, my mom and my god mom have the same taste.. lol..
Movie - too many
Singer - actually no favourites just like their songs..
Word - do I have a favourite word?? dunno wo..
Junk food - depends on my mood
Website - lots!!
Location - dunno..
Animal - Dog

Ever cried over someone - yea

Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself - be more hardworking, don't be jealous and trust people

Do you think you're attractive - err.. u tell me..

If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose - fairytale?? my own fairytale can ah?? lol

Do you play any sports - yup

List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people
1. I am a girl
2. I just finish eating dinner
3. I love Australian channels
4. I walk alot now!!
5. I like playing computer games
6. I miss my piano
7. I miss my grandma's food
8. I love my family and friends

8 people I tag:
anyone ler..