I'm back

I've been so lazy to blog =.=

well.. I'm back in Melb since a week ago..

got back my results.. I think it's ok ler.. reached my target for the 1st sem but must study from now onwards =.= *cross-fingers*

HOI essay have been assigned again!! omg.. tonight hv to read 4 of those books which I borrowed from the library that have to be return tomorrow.. haiz..

I dun wanna read so I'm blogging now.. haha..

I was in Malaysia for my 2 weeks break..

I had a wonderful n busy time.. thx to my friends and family who kept me busy.. hehe:P

Went clubbing twice.. once with my friends and another time with my cousin:D
was quite fun though things happen..

I just read everyone's blog and came across Yisan's blog which says about me as we met up

"Where should I start?

I met my friend who came back from Australia the other day. She seemed so happy and she had genuine laughter. A thought suddenly came across my mind: I was once so happy like her… where did all my laughter go?

Was it because I stayed at home for too long till my laughing machine became rusty?

Or was it the fact that I was hurt deeply in the heart till..?

Whatever the answer is... it won’t bring back my super laughter machine to life anyway..

I also noticed that I recently became quiet. Recently as in since February or something. Or was I like that all the time? I’m not too sure.

This is not me. I’m supposed to be the happiest person.. I thought I was. Until I met my friend.. no I am not jealous of her laughing machine.. I just wanna be the way I used to be... Happy inside out.."

Is it true? Is this laughter genuine? or I'm just acting it out in front of everyone else to make myself happy? I dunno.. I'm confused myself..

Ying was in Melb last whole week.. Since she was here.. I asked her to stay over my place on fri night=)

She bought a bottle of white wine and we drank while having our dinner.. lol.. I wasn't high but my face was red.. haha.. n ying as usual was kinda high like the truth and dare day.. LOL!! not as high as tat though.. cos we were outside..

After tat we went to Koko Black.. met up with my friends den we head back to my place.. caught up with all the chattings since she was having exams when I was back in Msia..

well.. much of our secrets been said.. so ying.. dun break ur promise.. remember not to tell anyone.. hehe:P n m still GUAI!!

actually to say the truth.. I've tried hard to forget bout it.. though i noe it's nearing 2 years ying.. =.= U think easy meh? but den when u brought it up again.. sigh.. I didn't know tat so many ppl actually kinda noe it.. haiz.. *stunned*

Watched Batman 2-The Dark Knight yesterday.. was a great show but a lil complicating.. Remembering the phrase "The truth is always not the best" when Alfred burned the letter from Rachel to Wayne.. that's so true.. this is life.. and last night I dreamed again.. haiz.. well.. back to reality.. goin to read my 4 books now.. Hoping everything will be right as there's no turning back..

I got an email from my friend and I like those words..
Read Carefully and Understand the Meanings:
Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push!
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
True friendship never ends.

Friends are forever.

Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Everything is ok in the end. If it's not ok, then it's not the end.

Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.

If u love something...let it go.
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.

A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug until its from the one ur thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come true. LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u.

Till here.. au revoir.. will update if I'm not lazy.. hehe:P

exams coming!!

hmm.. I was sick past few weeks.. now only getting better.. haiz..

I'm starting my exams on 21st june n finishing on the 26th june:D

Well.. Since I dun hv exam on 27th june, we're goin shopping!! haha.. den will be goin back on 28th!! can't wait to see all of u!! hehe:P dun miss me too much k.. haha.. will be goin back soon..

newayz I got my drama exam marks back!! well I got 8.75/10.. ok lah.. teacher commented quite alot n say tat I could've done better.. wants me to do better for the next term:D

I also got back my oral presentation which is 4.75/5.. haiz.. mummy said I should get 5.. but but.. no one got 5.. so must buck up..

Oh.. n I got my accounts essay back!! :D I got 5/5.. yay!! though lots of ppl got 5.. nvm.. still happy.. hehe:P

Maths is kinda tough now =.= n my econs!! lots of graphs to understand!! sobsob.. stupid graphs!! monopoly got own graph, perfect competition got own graph =.= dunno wat MC=MR den dunno wat.. haiyo.. pening kepala.. haha.. practically m scared of all my exams.. lol..

I still got my literature essay to finish up!! omg o_O I heard lots of ppl finish dy.. haiya.. me goin nuts.. k k.. pray for my exams though.. haha..

neway laine.. surely will go out with u lah when m back!! just like last time.. no worries.. dun cry when see me!! haha.. later I dunno wat to do again.. hehe:P enjoy ur holidays now n stop worrying bout those thing.. hmm.. and to my 'lovely friend' haha.. If we can't meet up since u're having ur exams tat time.. we'll go out when u come here k?? :D I'll surely make myself free.. lol.. good leh me.. haha.. erm.. I'll try to hv a party lah.. or just our gang overnight on fri night lo.. do whatever we want.. see first ler k:P

since m goin back.. all of u must make time for ME, ME AND ONLY ME!! LOL!! k k..

I've dy asked my mom to ask the maids to cook soup for me so tat when I reach home I can drink it straight away!! haha..

Tat day when I was talking to my mom on the phone.. She said someone changed alot.. not like last time anymore.. haha.. well.. I said tat too but since tat person dun think so I hv nth to say.. k ler shin.. I've updated!! haha.. must make time for me k!!

tata..

Sunday's dinner

hmm.. last Sun we cooked Bak Kut Teh.. hehe:P
After so long.. we started to cook again.. lol.. miss the days we cook n eat together in a table like a family:D

Hope we cook more often!! Whitney!! dun go out so often ler.. hehe:P n hope our hw won't stop us from cooking:D

May 27 2008

Just came back from dinner...

candle -LEGAL AGE- hehe:P

Firstly, I wanna thank all those who wished me Happy Birthday.. love you guys!!:D

Ying, m 2 hours ahead of Malaysia.. haha.. not 3.. ling.. I noe u saw Shuet's pm.. but nvm.. n laine.. haha.. after 9 years of friendship, this is the first time u remembered my birthday.. lol.. though it was a lil late.. Thanks shin for the blog n shuet for the wish.. even to Bee who wrote me a blog n Herng!! thank you.. miss u guys:D

well.. last night 12 midnight, my housemates and SZ actually came over to my room n bang the door until the door nearly tumble to wish me happy birthday..

i was stunned.. haha.. thx!!

Today.. I planned to go out n eat to celebrate my birthday:P

So, we went Vina Bar.. the food there was good.. hehe.. thx to Whitney's and Alicia's recommendation.. lol...

they went to book at 6.30 but was a lil late as they slept so Shan n Whitney ran there first.. lol.. everyone was kinda tired actually cos we slept very late last night..

After eating, Whitney acted shocked and whispered sth to Shan's ear.. I didn't noe wat happened.. was curious.. haha.. but den later Shan went in to the restaurant.. den Alicia said wanna go toilet with Shan..

They took quite a long time, so I look back n saw them standing at the cashier tat part.. I didn't know wat were they doing so I continued talking to the others.. haha..

Shan n Alicia got caught up with the cake in the entrance of the restaurant.. so I turn back n saw the cake.. I was stunned.. hehe:P

They asked me to pretend tat I dunno there's a cake.. so I turned back n they sang birthday song for me while bringing the cake over.. hehe:P

I dun hv the photos with me as it's all in their camera.. but the cake's from Brunetti.. it's called "flourless".. LOL.. wat kinda name.. tat's wat they said.. but it was nice:D

Thanks for everything unit 126 n gang.. U guys rox to the max!! love you guys so much... n thanks for the present.. Suddenly I realised tat I've became a mom.. one by one calling me "mummy" haiz.. haha.. all ur fault Alicia!!

I only got a few pics.. will upload soon when I get it from them..

Thanks once again!! Thanks for all u guys hv done to make such a day so special!!:P Thanks for being there..

oh.. n Alicia told us tat Shan actually scolded the Brunetti worker bcos they put there 16 instead of 18.. HAHA..

Shan had became a Malaysian since staying in unit 126!! hehe:P I love u all.. "unit 126 people" (Shan, Whitney, Alicia, Jsyn) n Shu Zhen..

Diary with decorations internally by Unit 126, pencil box n stickers(monkey) lol

from the cake..

-cheers- Jocelyn xoxo
u noe u love me:P

Crazy...

I did my accounts essay until 4am the night b4.. haiz.. m goin nuts!!

The accounts essay is more like u use it when u're working??!! o_O

I thought A levels was harder than us... but.. when I asked my friend who's having her finals soon bout advantages and disadvantages of accrual and cash accounting.. she doesn't know.. ish.. n how would i know how to manipulate accrual accounts when i just learnt? haiz...

So I went to library research loh.. haiz.. but luckily my daddy, the angel came to rescue!! haha.. he stayed up until 2 am in Malaysia to teach me.. hehe:P YAY!! how nice of him... lol..

So I finished my accounts essay in one night.. We have to write 750-1000 words.. At first I thought it was impossible.. haha.. but I did it!! wooohoooooo... :P

Now... concentrating on my history of ideas essay again... dunno wat's the use of doin when it actually won't help me future but to analyse... *rolling eyes*

There are 2 questions... 1st question is "How do u explain the success of Athenian civilization" and 2nd is "Was Tiberius Gracchus a friend or an enemy of freedom" I chose the 1st one of course!! haha.. I think when I go back I should be very good in history.. lol...

Neway... econs is getting tougher.. so many graphs to learn.. headache.. ish.. dun even hv time to actually revise to understand econs.. hv to faster finish up this essay to revise if not i dun understand.. hmm...

kk... goin crazy.. tat's all.. haha..

Meaningful...

I got this email from my friend and found it very meaningful...

To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
給我單身朋友們

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But
愛就像一隻蝴蝶。越要追牠，卻越要逃避。

if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can
如果就隨牠自由的飛，牠會在你最不注意時飛向你。

make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it
愛使人快樂，卻常傷害人。但只有在你把愛給了一個真正值得付出的人時，是最珍貴的。

to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.
所以，花點時間去選擇最好的他 /她吧

To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
給我那不是單身的朋友們

Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about
愛不能使他 /她成為一個 '完美的人'

finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.
它卻可以使你找到一個幫你成長的他 /她

To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
給我玩世不恭的朋友們

Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they
如果你不在乎，不要說 '我愛你 '。如果他們不在時，不要討論自已的感受

aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look
不要涉足會使他人心碎的生活。

in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is
說謊時，不要看著眼睛。

to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...
最殘忍的事莫過於男人讓女人愛他，卻是逢場作戲。反之亦然 …

To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
給我已婚的朋友們

Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry.' Not 'where are you',
不要老是說 '這是你的錯 '，何不說說 '對不起 '。

but 'I'm right here.' Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.' Not 'I
不要老是問 '你去哪裡了 '，何不說說 '我就在這兒等著你 '。
不要老是問 '你怎麼會這麼作？ '，何不說說 '我了解你 '。

wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.'
不要老是說 '我希望你這麼做 '，何不說說 '我感謝你的一切 '。

To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
給我那已訂婚的朋友們

The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other.
要真正衡量包容心，不是看在一起幾年了，而是要看彼此的敬愛

To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
給我心碎的朋友們

Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go.
心碎的時間和傷害的深度，完全取決於你自已。

The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.
難的是，如何從中學習，而不是從傷痛中爬起。

To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE
給我所有天真的朋友們

How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too
要如何戀愛？ --就愛吧。不要欲言又止；要互相協調，不要太固執；

persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand,
要分享，且千萬不要有不公平；要了解，別命令；

and get hurt but never keep the pain.
受傷後不要再記恨。

To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
給我積極的朋友們

It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but
看到你所愛的他 /她和其他人很快樂使你心碎

it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.
但知道你所愛的他 /她是和你在一起不快樂，令人更加的傷心。

To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS
給我害怕去承認的朋友們

Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when
當你和他 /她分手時，愛受到傷害

someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you
當他 /她和你分手時，更是傷痛

love has no idea how you feel.
但傷害最深的是你所愛的他 /她完全無法了解你的感受

To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON
給我那還在等待的朋友們

A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now.
人生最傷心的事，是你和他 /她愛情長跑了多年，最後的結局卻不如所望。' 如果他/ 她現在讓你覺得不值得付出，那麼一年，甚至十年後，都不會值得付出的。

Let go.....
讓他 /她走吧

TO ALL MY FRIENDS.......
給我所有的朋友們

My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature, never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.
我竭誠祝福你們愛著一個誠實、強壯、成熟、衷心、有衝勁、保護你、積極、值得付出和無私的他 /她。

loving this song and the lyrics

Mariah Carey: Bye Bye
This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye